It's Halloween night. Which honestly isn't saying much. Halloween used to be one of my favorite holidays. But in recent years, It's just not the same. I remember spending hours trick or treating, and it was always dark out, and I know because, my mom had a rule - "when the street lights come on, you come home." But Halloween was the one night I was able to stay out past the lights.

My wife and I, took our kids out trick or treating, We started around 7pm. Here's the sad thing, well.. one sad thing..most kids and parents started trick or treating around 4-5pm. Are you fucking kidding me? It's still daylight out. Where's the spooky factor?

Don't even get me started on costumes, it seems now-days, all it takes is a Halloween themed t-shirt, to pass as a costume. Hell I even saw multiple kids WITHOUT a costume, just a bucket for candy. Have we all really fallen this far, and no longer show any effort? Just show the bare minimum to get a reward? You know what this reminds me of? Giving kids a trophy for just participating, or showing up. Lowest effort, get a trophy.

Then society wonders, and complains what's wrong with youth today? It's really not hard to figure out. Back to our Halloween trip through the neighborhood, I witnessed several parents, actually driving their kids to houses, stopping in the middle of the road, putting on their four-ways, while the kids get out, grab candy, and head back to the car to the next house, WITHOUT COSTUMES. It makes me sick.

Alright, so I think i'm done with my rant. Just Do. Fucking. Better. Let's move on..

So let's see what I've been upto these past few weeks..absolutely nothing. =) Well, I guess that's not entirely true, I have had two post-op appointments, from my nasal surgery, and well..things were good, then bad, for some odd reason. Doc said I was all good, except.. I would need something stronger than Flonase - nasal spray, they gave me a script to fill, only to find out the damn thing costs 3k for a ONE MONTH supply. I can't afford that, who the hell could? That 3k pricetag is AFTER discounts. So i'm in the process of trying a to find an alternative, so far There isn't a generic brand of this medication, and the medication doesn't fall under ANY insurance, like wtf?

So they basically expect me to dish out 3k every month, for the rest of my life? Without this "special" nasal spray, I have a 99% chance of a reoccurance of nose Polyps. I really despise big pharma, and US medicine.

As for other crap that's been going on, I've been playing a game I found on GOG, called Traveller's Rest It sort of like a sim/management game, where you run an inn, serve food, and drink to your guests, it seems to still be in a alpha/beta stage, but the game is pretty solid, with a few quirks. I find it sort of relaxing.

As for other games, months ago I found a game called Tiny Glade, and I followed the developement for a while, till it was finally released. I bought it on release, and it was absolutely beautiful, and so calming. So basically the game has no goal, you get a tiny space, to build, a cozy castle, or hamlet, with animals, trees, flowers, etc. and the building is all free-form. there is no grid. I recommend, if you're looking for something to just unwind, create a scape of your own, and just chill, they also have the option of screenshotting your builds, with different lighting, and camera effects.

While I'm not playing those games, on the weekends, I play 7 Days to Die with my brother, It's been around for a long time now, but recently left Early Access, while the game has dated graphics, and a few quirks to it, my brother and I have a blast every time we play. If you like zombie survival games, this is it.

I also realized that these all sound like advertisments, so screw that, play what you want, I just wanted to share what I've been playing, cause I have a blast. Until the next update, love you all!

I had my two week post-op appointment yesterday, I was happy, and disappointed at the same time. While, the procedure did help me, and I can finally breathe again, apparently during my procedure, they took a sample for a biopsy.

Yesterday, I found out I had Nasal Polyps. They are small growths inside the nasal passage, which can cause cronic inflammation, which leads to an infection. So that pretty much explained everything thats been effecting me for so long.

Year's ago, and we're talking at least 10 or more years ago, I used to work for a window cleaning company, and I worked this job for years, basically..right after high school. Which was around the year 2000. Well, during my time working this job, I worked around and with many chemicals, including chlorine, which, could possibly have cause these conditions in my nose, not 100% sure, but it seems likely.

So my post-op appointment, basically said everything looks great! I'm healing well from the procedure, but I need to continue Saline Rinses for two months, initially the Saline Rinses were only for two weeks. But after the results, they extended the rinses for two months.

The medication needed for the infection, to add to my Saline Rinses, is $70, for a month supply. It's rather expensive, and I need to to do those Saline Rinses twice a day. I can tell you.. it's awful. It's not fun doing these rinses, but if it keeps the infection away, then I'm all for it.

Once I'm finished with these Saline Rinses, I need to switch over to Flonase, which is a nasal spray. I was informed, that I would need to use this nasal spray twice a day..for the rest of my life.

It's a bit disheartening, to realize you spent 5k on a procedure, only to realize, you aren't cured. And you'll have to take preventitive measures for the rest of your existence. The nasal spray will prevent cronic inflammation, hence prevent futher infections. It's all good news, and sad news at the same time. But hey, at least it wasn't cancer, and major surgery. I'm thankful for that.

But let's talk about something else besides my health! I recently finished the show Justified. Which was on FX years ago, this was my second watch, and I enjoyed it as much as the first. I just love Timothy Olyphant, and Walton Goggins. They are just really good at the roles they play. But I will say, Walton Goggins..has to be my favorite, with his southern accent, and articulate way of speaking.

Before I started watching Justified for the second time, I re-watched Mr Inbetween. It was also a show on FX years ago, but was cancelled after seasons 3. Which is a shame, because it was a really good show, I have a theory in why it was cancelled, and I think there just wasn't an audience for it, being it was based in Australia. But I will say, the main character in the show was, fuckin' awesome. He really took this show to a new level. Perhaps that's what it's downfall was, the US just wasn't ready for a rutheless Australian.

Other than show's I've been watching, I've been listening to music, and if you've been with me this long, then you know I'm a music fanatatic. But I recently, been listening to classic rock. And when I say classic rock, I'm talking, Doowop. Like 1950's. I've also been listening to cover songs, because I absolutely love listening to different bands covering songs. Wether, it's metal covering, classic songs, or punk covering, metal songs, I fuckin' love it. Take the journey with me!

Hope you all are doing well, love you all. I'll post and update soon!

I'm alive and, sorta..well? I had my sinus procedure this past Tuesday. I'm just gunna say it. When a doctor says, you won't feel anything, take it with a grain of salt.

Before my sinus procedure, I was told to take an Oxy, a nausea pill, and two Diazpam, for anxiety. (which also makes you sleepy). They assured me, I would be pretty out of it. I was not. I was awake, coherant, and felt everything. It was NOT a pleasant experience.

I will say though, the doctor was extremely nice, and explained everything he was doing during it. He also ask me multiple times how I was doing, and if I was in pain. I was, but hey, I have a high threshhold for pain, so I said everything was fine.

After the procedure, however..once I came home, I was in extreme pain, something I've never felt before in my life, it felt like some one stuck two red hot pokers in my nostrils, and I was in tears. Which is big because I can usually handle pain. I took another Oxy, and fell asleep to get rid of the pain. It helped.

They did warn me before hand, that after the procedure, I would have the worst congestion, I have ever had had in my life, in they weren't kidding, my nose was completely closed off, and I could only get air from mouth breathing. I spent the next few days with a gauze over my nose for leaking and discharge.

The day after I had to start a saline solution 4 times a day through my nose, to clear out any buildup or infection. I'll tell you right now, these saline rinses are NOT fun. They make my eyes water, and seeing the discharge coming from your sinuses is something you rather not see to be honest,

Today though, the inflammatuon in my sinus pressure has gone down, and i've begun to breathe normally again. It's still early though. My post op appointent is two weeks from now, and we'll see then how things have progressed.

All I can say for now is, if you have sinus issues, definitely get it looked at. I waited way to long, and ended up with a bacterial infection, which to me honestly, im grateful for, because if it were a fungal infection, I would have needed surgery. And a fungal infection is deadly if not taken care of quickly.

As I continue my recovery, I'll update you all on what's going on.

It's been an interesting couple of weeks, to say the least. I've been battling sinus issues for over 10 years, but the past couple of weeeks have really been bad, and made me realize this isn't going away. I'll spare all of you the disgusting details, But I finally went to a Sinus/Allergy center..had a CT Scan done, and a Endoscopy done.

Come to find out, my left sinus cavity is completely blocked, and full of mucus/fluid. They said is may be a slight fungal infection. Which is serious. Fungal infections require surgery. Thankfully, they said it's not sever, and I need to undergo a procedure, to drain my sinuses.

I can't remember the medical term for it, but basically..they sedate me, insert a small balloon, and inflate it inside my sinus cavity, which will open up my sinuses, allowing the mucus/fluid to drain out. It sounds disgusting, and it is. But The practictioner asures me, I will feel nothing.

Once the procedure is over, I'll be recovering for two weeks, the first two days, will be the worst. She says, I will experience the worst congestion I've ever felt, but after that, it's smooth sailing.

I'm extremely anxious and nervous about the procedure, because I've never had this done, and from what they tell me, I'll never need it again, it's One and Done.

But hey, I wouldn't be the person I am today, if I took pain lightly. I can usually deal with dicomfort and pain daily without a blink of an eye, But when it comes to a certain point, I go and see a doctor. 10+ years is a long time to deal with anything medical related.

I look forward to finally breathing again, I won't lie, my smell and taste has diminished quite a bit this past year, to where I can't even smell the freshness of laundry, and can't even taste my own cooking.

It's a bit ironic, that I was listening to a song titled [Forever Young]. I'll update when I can. Love you all.

It's been awhile! Well holy crap, I'm still here, and still alive. I see some, if not most of my friends/ followers, have either deleted, or abandoned their sites. it's expected, but still sad to see.

I guess I should kinda fill everybody in as to what's being going, on, and where I've been. I believe my last post, I mentioned I've been kinda doing a digital detox, and just livin' life. And I have! It's been an amazing experience. I've pretty much ditched all social media, granted.. I never really used it aside from tiktok. But I've even ditched that!. It has been liberating.

I began to notice just how dependant I was on tiktok, and I began to care about the people I followed. And I would wait for them to go live, and and sit and watch them for hours.

My family and I had a vacation planned for the summer, so we planned on spending a few days in Georgia, then two weeks in North Carolina, with family. It was an amazing trip, We had tons of fun, and I didn't use tiktok or any social media at all the whole trip, hell..I barely even used my phone, accept to make calls and check text messages. It was really a liberating experience.

This trip was back in late June, early July. And since then, I haven't used any social media, including tiktok. And I honestly don't miss any of it. I took a look back, and realized how focused and obsessed I was over these "creators". Spending my days, and nights, watching, and waiting. I never spent money on these people because I don't believe in it. Since I'm an older generation, It doesn't make sence to me.

But anyway that's beside the point, I've been gone for month's! And I felt it was time to post an update to anyone who is still here, and following me. I've missed my website, and Neocities, but not so much, that I feel the need to update everyday. I'll admit it, seeing some of my close friends, just up and leave, without a word, or websites deleted without a word, kinda left a sour taste in my mouth.

It kind of reminds me of the old days of the internet when personal websites would come and go, you'd meet, and connect with some awesome people, then [poof] gone, they're gone. without a trace, no email, no message. nothing. So to see some of my neocities buddies, just, gone, deleted, or abandoned brings sadness to my heart.

I hope that I can continue my neocities journey, and hope to keep my friends, and even earn new ones. Although I've only been updating every few months.

So with that said, let's see what I've been upto, to keep me so occupied. For one, my kids have started back school, so there's that. After our eventful summer trip, things have calmed down, me and my wife have recently learned our closest friends have planned on moving and bought a house about 3 hours from us. We are sad, but we can't stop progress. It'll be hard since our kids have grown up together. Of course we plan on spending holidays and stuff together, but let's face it, how long do those plans last? Hours apart, people drift apart, it's just how it is. But on the plus side, me and the wife have decided to move our family as well. We are in the process of clearing out our home, renovating, and soon getting an inspector and realtor in, so we can see where we stand. Once we have everything in order, we will be moving. It will be hard, because me and my wife have been here for 20+ years, had kids here and everything. But it's time for a change, and a bigger place to live, and create new memories.

Our plan is to have all this done by the end of the year, and hopefully have our new home by Christmas. But hey, we all know things don't go according to plan, and that's ok. We will just play it by ear, and hopefully, I have the time, to update everyone on what's going on, and one day update my other pages, like my art and stuff.

I have truly missed this, and all my neocities friends, I hope all are doing well. Much love <3>

PS: If you find any spelling errors or anything, ..I was kinda drunk when I wrote this update. =)

Well, it sure feels like it's been a lot longer than a month since i've posted. I figured I'd post just to let everyone know i'm still around, apologies, for missing posts, and sending out those likes and comments, this has actually been the first time i've been on my laptop since I last posted, I just.. I don't know..haven't felt the need or want to even get on it.

So as far as me, and what's been up, not a whole lot! Still kinda just hanging out with family and friends. And uknowingly became a neighborhood friend, or a sort of chaperone, for the kids in the neighborhood. It's a little strange, and all seem to happen by accident. My kids ride the bus in the afternoons, and our neighborhood has a park, and the bus stop is conveniently right next to the park, so..pretty much everyday, I take my kids to the park to play. So the other kids from the bus play at the park as well, but I seem to be the only parent that sticks around. Well, me being that fun guy, the goofy dad that acts like a kids himself, the kids all gravitate towards me. So I end up watching like 7 kids, making sure their safe, I make sure they get home ok, I chat with the parents, become friends, all the parents know who I am, know their kids are safe with me. It's all good. This tight knit little community is nice, and hard to come by today.

This past saturday, I took the kids on a bike a ride with my longboard around the neighborhood, I noticed one of the kids from the neighborhood was having a bday party, So i'm just cruising along, and look up and see the kid's father waving me down, So I rode over to him, and did the whole handshake thing, and he offered my kids to come and hang out, they had a blow up bounce house/water slide, so I was like hell yea! I took my kids back to the house real quick to get changed, and came back the party, they had a blast, they offered us some ribs, hotdogs, gave me a few beers, the works. It was an unexpected day, and those are the fucking BEST. My kids got to play with their friends, had a blast, I got to hang out with my neighbors, getting to know each other more, laughing, exchanging "war" stories, good food, good vibes.

This..this is what it's all about. I miss the sense of community. No we aren't rich, we aren't all living our best life. But we are living. and we're enjoying every fucking moment of it.

Seems I'm not the only one having lack of ambition, or motivation for their site. It feels real. And I get it, it may not be the same for others, but for me, I begin to feel stuck. Updating this thing, I begin focusing on content, does it matter? Are people looking at it? Do people hate it, like it? how many followers do I have? How many should I have? Does any of this shit matter? Does my content make an impact on anyone, does it push people away?

This is when I realize, it's to much to focus on. This isn't what being a Webmaster meant to me when I first started, it was all for me, and if I reached an audience, well..hell yea! But with the way the web works today, it's all about content, engagement, likes, follows. Honestly, it makes me sick, and I begin to just drown in overthinking things.

It's when I take a break, pause, step back and re-think. I realize this space..this site, it's for me. If I happen to snag a few people who like my stuff along the way, then, fuck yea! The more the merrier! But I need to keep this state of mind, if I intend to keep this space.

So enough of all that crap, I like to keep it random. It more fun that way! We took the kids to the fair this past weekend, actually the last day of the fair. We usually go every year, with a "couple", so like a double date type thing with kids. We've been hanging out with this couple for years now, and we've all become good friends. Honestly, it's a funny dynamic, my wife and her husband have everything in common, and I and his wife everything in common, it's unreal, almost like we all chose the wrong person.

Anyway, So we did our yearly fair trip, and it was all good, except, the night before, my old ass pulled a back muscle IN BED while turning over. On top of that, I had a fucked up ankle from the previous day, from riding my long board. So I was in a lot of pain walking around the fair for about 8 hours. But our kids had a lot of fun, so that's all that matters.

In other shit..I've been on a Chillstep, and some Rap kick lately, like, I've completely abandoned my punk, and metal playlists. It's just feels right, at the moment. It usually wears off, and I go back to my metal, but man, I do love my Chillstep. I definitely recommend looking up the above song on Spotify or YouTube. It's more house, than Chillstep, but damn it's so good. Chillstep holds a special place in my heart, I used to be a huge Dubstep fan, but I migrated to Chillstep Because I just appreciate the vocals, and chill vibe that comes along with it.

It almost reminds me of smoking out in my room, turning on my blacklight, and turning on some TOOL, or Deftones. Or just kickin' it with a homie in the car, and just driving around to nowhere, for no fuckin' reason. There's just no feeling like it.

It's been a HOT MINUTE, since I've been on Neocities, the holidays pretty much took up my time, which honestly crashed, and combined into my digital detox. I've been in a state of limbo, as far as the internet is concerned, while I've avoided most of the net, I did check in on the "news" every once and a while.

I've honestly been spending more time with my family, listening to music[obviously], hanging with friends, drinking, and just hanging out. It's been fucking great. Not worrying about wtf is going on in the digital world, having some friends over, hanging out in my patio, drinking and having a fuckin' blast. Haven't missed any of this internet culture.

Having said that, my updates will most likely be few and far between, I've come to realize, life is so much more fulfilling without the internet, which is an odd way to think, considering I was around when the internet was born, I've been apart of it since conception, but maybe... just maybe that's why, why I need these breaks, I've seen the net rise, and I've seen it's shitty fall, into a dystopian wasteland. Full of hate, politics, gender wars, and fighting over the most stupidest shit I've ever seen. I'm honestly over it.

I'll continue to post updates, maybe have a layout change, whenever I feel like it, but the ambition is gone. But as far as adding more content, or newer content, I doubt it. I feel empty with this shit. I feel it's almost a waste of my time. But let's not misconstrue what I'm saying. I love ya'll. Truely. I've become friends with a few of you, and I hope you know who you are, cause I keep my friends for life.

Hope ya'll had an amazing holiday, I'll update soon, when something happens worth posting. Much Love.

Aright, so I've been gone for a bit. Not much for updates, it's been damn nice stepping away from my site for a while though, as well as generally stepping away from my pc/laptop. Of course the holidays have helped that, it's a busy time of year, getting all the gifts down, decorating and all that. Christmas has always been my favorite time of year, even before kids. Why? Because it never fails.. Every year, people become humble, nice to one another, we exchange casual conversation, make new friends, we wave, we go out of our way to help one another, spread niceties, compliments. It's almost as if this vile world doesn't exist, and we're all just living the moment. And I'm all for it, even if it is only for the month of Decemeber.

So onto other shit, in my abscence i've been messing with my playlists on Spotify, and decided to work on my 'rap' playlist. Now, let me just say, I'm a metalhead at heart. BUT I grew up in a time when metal was kinda MEH in my opinion. I grew up with 90's booty rap, and 90's rap. Most of todays rap is honestly shit. But that's MY opinion, because i grew up with rap that had funk, and a message, wether it was a good one or not. It didn't matter, it had meaning. Today's shit I can't help but try and hold from throwing up.

Now you might be asking, wtf is Booty Rap? Well..if you know, you know. But I'll enlighten you. It's a period of time in the early 90's where it was a distinct style, sound, and lyrics, among the top for artists, were 69 Boyz. But it's so much deeper. It's a rabbit hole, and it's amazing, so many great artists lost in time. 95 South, Uncle Luke, Uncle Al, Splack Pack, just to name a few. (Fun Fact - Splack Pack is from my Home Town.)

But this type of rap, was fast, had loads of bass, and it made you wanna fuckin' dance. Clubs were off the hook when these songs played. I miss this type of rap, but I also miss the later years of rap, where we get Warren G, Nas, DMX, Lil' Kim, 50 Cent. The list goes on. It was all fuckin' awesome.

This is all leading somewhere, really. So I've been an Eminem fan since his first LP. It may sound trendy or whatever, but let's not forget Vanilla Ice. Right? Right. Eminem set a standard, it was a big fuck you to everyone, and I loved it. His lyrics went deep with so many people, hitting those spots of hate, depression, sadnesss, love, and just pure chaos. And yes, he is a Rap God, ya can't change my mind. I remember coming ascross his whole MGK dispute, yes MGK is a fucking idiot. Eminem put out a single called 'Godzilla'. And No fucking shit was the best one he put out by far, his bars are so fast, so consistant, it's honestly amazing, he never misses a step.

I'm rambling, my point of all that was, the song featured Juice Wrld. Now I've heard of Juice WRLD before, and I truely never listened to any of his music, because, well I never thought about it, but a few weeks ago, I decided, you know what? fuck it. So I looked him up on Spotify. And..well I became a fan. Yes, I know he's passed away, it saddens me, because he truely has some amazing tracks. Now I will say this - I absolutely HATE Auto-Tune. Every new rapper/singer uses it, and it sounds fucking awful. Juice WRLD, has to be the ONLY rapper I've heard, that sounds good. and his songs are so good. He tell's a story in his lyrics, and that's why I think he clicks with me.

So with all that, I'm dedicating this to Juice WRLD. Much Love brother, Taken away too soon, your lyrics speak truth, and resonate with so many. R.I.P.

Site is back to normal, lack of updates and all that.

You know, I love Halloween, but I swear, it's not the same. I'm honestly glad it's over. We barely took any photos, why? because it sucked. Halloween has been ruined by trunk or treat, and you can't convince me otherwise. A 5 minute walk down a line of car trunks, and you end up with a bucket full of candy. Where's the fun at, where's the scares? Our entire neighborhood was dark. Noone decorated, no candy being handed out. Don't even get me started on all the stupid ass costumes people are wearing now, I was literally the only person wearing a costume that was scary. I no longer care to even participate in this shit.

Reason for lack of an update, shit hit the fan over here. Well, what I mean is, I've had to put my tattoo sessions on hold, me and the wife bought a new(used) SUV, but I shit you not, once we brought our new baby home, our second vehicle literally said "screw it" and crapped out on us, repairs were going to cost us around $7k. With the year, and mileage, it just wasn't worth fixing. We ended up getting a cash offer for around $2k for it. No lie, me and my 5 year old daughter started crying when we left our vehicle behind.

It's strange, to have an emotional attatchment to a vehicle. I was upset because that SUV had a lot of memories for me, I drove my wife to the hospital when she was in labor with our son, we drove our son home in it. I drove her back when she was pregnant with our daughter, and again, we drove her home in it. We took family trips to PA in it, we went camping with it. We watched our kids play in the front seats whenever we gave it a car wash. To see it sit in a lot waiting to be auctioned was heartbreaking.

We're in the process of looking for a new(used) second vehicle, because with me and the wife's schedule, it's pretty much essential for the kids. It's also the worst time for it, with this shit economy.

In other shitty news, can we talk about this obession with Black Friday? I'm not crazy, this shit is getting out of hand, it's getting earlier every damn year. RIGHT NOW, literally we have Black Friday deals going on in stores, wtf? I remember when Black Friday was the day AFTER Thanksgiving. But no lets just start this shit on November 1st, while were at let's all decorate for Christmas too. This shit makes me rage. At this point it's not even Black Friday sales, just call it "November Savings" or some shit, or wait you know what? Lets just start Black Friday in July, fuck it, who needs the Holiday season anymore.

Oh and screw all you Instagram/online Influencers. OMG you bought a watch online for $2k? Oh shit, you got a deal on some hand cream, only $60? Can we stop this bullshit please? I don't care, and i'm gunna assume the majority doesn't give a shit either.

I feel like i'm getting close to a digital breakdown, like I need to disconnect, disengage, and detox from this vile, unholy dystopian wasteland we call the internet. What makes it even worse, is I see my kids getting sucked into this online crap. Repeating shit they hear on youtube, or using online slang that makes me want to vomit.

And you know, I spew this shit here, and it makes me seem like a hateful person, like I hate everything, but in reality, i'm a really chill guy, i'm nice to pretty much everyone unless you piss me off. I'm polite, I try and not stress of shit I have no control over, but man it's hard to back away when so many things piss you off, I'm Gen X, I stay in the shadows for the most part, but i'll definitely step in or say something if need be.

Neocities is really the only link I have left of the old web, and even that's not really perfect, while it resembles part of the old web, it's mixed with new web, new mentality, new personalities that try to mimic the old days. I'll be upfront in saying; I hate it. You're either old web, or you're not, don't fake it.

I'll relinquish my hostility now, if i've hurt someones feelings, or lose followers, it's consequence to my action, and it's whatever. I'm also drunk..so there's that.

Love me or hate me, see you all in the next update.

Added a new shitty recipe. mhm.

How many actually notice that I have a "listening to" on each post? No one? well I never! screw you guys, but no really, check out Union 13 - Never connected. Such a good song. Bring back the 90's please.

Let's move onto other shit. So..I'm a horror fan, I love horror movies, I can watch them everyday, or all day if I let myself. But let's be real, not every horror flick is created equal, in fact, I've watched, and sat through some pretty shitty movies. And not just your typical "ugh this is awful", more like "come the fuck on[eyeroll]" type bullshit.

But every once and a while, I'll come across an underratted horror flick, and I'm like hell yea!

Enter: Terrifier; This series is brutal. But it's a little more than that. The actor who plays Art the clown, is just spot on, his Mime antics are top notch, and his overall body language is excellent. I've even chuckled a few times, when he Mime's

You know what's not a good movie? Twilight. Yea yea, its not a horror movie. I'm just saying, Unless you rather waste brain cells, on teens who wear glitter. fuck outta here..yea I said it.

Added a new page to the menu, yup.

So it's been a long time since I did any gaming, so a day before yesterday I hit up my bro, and said "Let's fuck some shit up". So we headed in to PUBG and did a few rounds, mind you I was 4 drinks in, so there's that. After that We headed into Realm Royale, we've played this game for so long, and they recently did a relaunch. We got our asses kicked, just sayin'. But had a lot of fun. Of course, anything can be fun when you're drunk.

We ended up playing till around 3am, I'll just say..getting out of my computer chair was a challenge, don't even get me started on trying to walk up my stairs to my bed. I crashed hard. Woke up the next day, not even remembering half of my gaming session. Don't care, had fun. That's all that matters.

Ok so..I'm just gunna spit this out, cause it kinda pisses me off, so rant incoming. I watched a video of some dude talking about his visit to Walmart, and how the self-check outs offer a no receipt option, yet the door checkers require a receipt to exit. Stupid, I know..but that's not what annoyed me, it was the comments on the video, specifically the first comment which had a ton of upvotes. Basically the comment was, "why the fuck are you letting them see your receipt, you're violating your 4th amemdment right".

Like really? Are people this fucking stupid, are they so disconnected that they need to create inconvenience, and waste time just because? Just let them see the fucking thing, it's not hard. It doesn't hurt anyone, it's someone doing their fucking job, wether you think the job is required is irrelevant, for fuck sake.

I swear, if I had that dude infront of me, while I'm trying to leave Walmart, and this twat was holding up the line, I'd tell the fucker to get the hell out of the way, I don't have time for this shit.

I told myself I wasn't going to do a Halloween theme, but screw it. You know me, gotta add some goofy-ness to it.

Still healing from previous tattoo session, so I haven't done any Doodles, I tried to last night, and it just wasn't happening. I have one partially done, but It's honestly looking about the same as my others, so I may just scrap it and start anew.

I took my wife out for breakfast this morning to this hole in the wall place, It's been there for years, and I can't believe I've been here all my life and never once been to this place. It was amazing, good ol' country breakfast. I ordered some sunnyside up eggs, sausage and grits, and they were so damn good. Me and the wife shared a plate of bisquits and gravy, and that shit brought me background to my childhood, all of the food was excellent. We ended up ordering a peanut butter pie to go, and holy shit was it good, creamy whipped peanut butter with a layer of milk chocolate on top.

I'm seriously considering remove all franchise food from my life, and hitting up these hole in the wall places, because that's were the good food is, and its fucking cheap. My breakfast alone was $7, my wife was around the same, and it was a large amount of food. On our way home we passed a taco hell, and their sign outside said they served breakfast, kinda chuckled to myself, just thinking about the kinda crap I'd get if i went there. Some soggy ass egg burrito, and greasy cold hashbrowns, nah I'm good.

Ok, so anyone else hear about the October 4th emergency alert days before it was supposed to happen? I'm just wondering what the fuck was everyone was so afraid of. I was reading, and hearing people freaking out about it, from things like people turning into zombies, or microscopic nanites activating from the covid vaccine, is it just the new generation? Does the younger crown really believe in this type of bullshit, or is this all just social media bullshit click-bait drama meant to stir up fear and panic?

I've been through these alerts all my life, and I just dont understand the fear and panic. Its just a simple test for the EAS(Emergeny Alert System) do the younger people not understand what that is?

It's the only system in the U.S. that we have to use in case of an emergency, for instance, a nulcear attack. There were so many people that were pissed off that their cell phone would sound an alert for a few seconds, like their fucking life was ending.

It was a fucking TEST to make sure the system still worked. This happened 3 years ago, and before that as well. I for one, am sort of grateful such a system exists, and if they need to test to make sure it works, more power to em'. 'cause I for one would like to be notified of and impending nuclear attack, or another extreme distaster.

Case in point, I live in Florida, when we have a sever hurricane coming our way, and all tv networks, and wireless communications were knocked out, EAS was activated across all signals to alert us of potential catastrophic damage, meaning potential death. This gets us prepared for the worst, and to seek immediate shelter.

So for anyone pissed off that our governmenet is testing it's emergency system, screw off. It's there for a reason. These tests having been happening since I was a kid. And it's just that..a test. Trust me, you'll be happy the system is place for an actual real emergency.

In other lighter news? My tattoo is healing nicely, a little itchy and annoying at times, but all good. I'll post a picture of it, once the full sleeve is done. On that note, its a little hard to use the computer, or even draw at the moment, because the tattto is on my right and hand palm. So once I'm healed, I'll be good to get some more doodles out.

I'm also thinking about adding a Neocities graveyard to my links, because it seems quite a few that I follow have either dropped off the radar, or completely deleted their site. It saddens me.

It's personal now, don't like it? Don't care. rock on fuckers.

I start my first session on my sleeve tattoo tomorrow and I'm fucking stoked. So I'm enjoying myself tonight, I'm 6 twisted tea's in and feeling gewd. So..in other shit..

I watch tiktok videos, yea I know..lame, YOU SUCK, all that shit. but hear me out. I find some funny crap on there, and sometimes, even new bands, rarely, because..well people musical taste kinda suck. Case in point, I saw a video tonight of a dude listening to a band, and he said it had the best BLEGH's he's ever heard. I went to spotify, looked up the band and song. And all I can say is.. they were the WEAKEST BLEGH's i've ever heard, I mean really, I did an eyeroll and threw up in my mouth.

I can't even remember the band's name, that's how forgettable it was. I want a BLEGH with feeling, where it hits so hard, follows a double bass breakdown and makes you wanna kick someones fucking face in. So I went into mu playlist and played After The Burial - Lost In The Static. just to get that awful band out of my head. Wanna know what I mean?

Turn it up and fucking enjoy.
BLEGH <- I'm a link, I tend to blend in.
For some stupid reason, youtube won't let me embed the video, so whatever.

Oh Man, what a weekend! I headed up to see a buddy, well more of a brother, a couple hours away and crashed as his place for the weekend. You know you have a brother, or friend for life, when you can pick up where you left off, no matter how long, or what situation.

We vegged out all weekend, playing some poker, some good ol fashioned board games, and some DnD baby! All while drinking, and gut busting laughter. My bro had a guest room all set up for me, and my own bathroom. I felt like I was in a hotel. Also had the pleasure of meeting his new pups, two mini dachshund's Thor, and Loki, as well as my favorite Corgi - Odin. Love him to death. He took me to a hole in the wall place called Mutts which he claimed had the best burgers, and no lie, they were damn good, I ordered a side of fried pickles along with my burger, and they were the BEST fried pickles i've had.

Our weekend flew by way to fast. By the time I realized, it was time for me to hit the road back home. BUT, we have planned to do this way more often, I mean after all, DnD cannot be finished in a couple days. I had a blast, and I can't wait to do it again!

Had another tattoo session today, which started my journey of a full sleeve tattoo on my right arm. I'm going Norse/Viking, which will eventually focus around Fenrir, today was a simple norse pattern on my hand. I'm fucking stoked to see it's final form.

So as with the new tattoos, I'm having to take a short break on my Doodles, which I have been drawing up. Hoping to get a few added in a couple weeks. 'Cause next Friday, I'm taking a 3 Day vacation, and visiting a life long friend of mine who's about 2 hours away. I've Known this guy since 6th grade, and we've been causing havoc ever since. So this getaway is some good ol' fashion catching up, drinking, gambling, gaming, and laughing till we fart.

I usually don't get sentimental, I try to avoid it in fear of slipping into depression, but I've been drinking, and shit happens. So I decided I'd take a trip down memory lane in my head. I tend to live in the past rather than the present. Why? cause it was fucking better. But it was also a fucking mess. I grew up when things were fun, chaotic, and sad all rolled into one big middle fingered fuck you.

I grew up with the best music, and the the worst parents..the best drugs, the worst bullies. I suffered through the jocks in school, I went through the fights, the bad grades, the shitty teachers. All to come home to fighting, or drunk parents. High school was the worst, and best time of my life.

But through everything, music was always there. I went through a lot of music genres, Middle School was Booty Rap, 69 Boyz, Uncle AL, etc, Hitting High School, my musical preference changed to punk, NOFX, Pennywise, Blink 182, the list goes on. As continued High School, I went from punk to metal, but it was a weird time for metal, and I started out with Cannibal Corpse.

While that type of metal wasn't for everyone, and it sure as hell was different than listening to say NOFX. It resonated with my angst, my hatred for school, for the bullies, it just fit. I quickly moved away from Cannibal Corpse, and discovered Nu Metal, Limp Bizkit just hit the scene, it was a fucking game changer. Hearing the sound, those screams, the all out emotion in the lyrics, it raised the hair on my arms, and I knew from that moment, that's who I was. Metal has changed so much over the years for me. Metallica? no thanks, I'm not on that shitty bandwagon. Limp Bizkit paved the way for me.

As years went by, and Limp Bizkit became less relevant, Nu Bands came up(see what I did there?). A whole world opened up for me, A Day to Remember, Haste the Day. They all had this amazing sound, amazing lyrics, raw emotion. And it's just what I needed. I needed those lyrics to relate to. I needed that emotion to scream back at the world and say fuck you.

By this time, I had gotten sucked into WoW(World Of Warcraft). After a few years of playing WoW, I met a girl from California, a metalhead. She was the one who introduced me to As I Lay Dying, The hairs on my neck and arms raised as I listened to 'Reflection'. I immediately fell in love with the band, and her. All while I had a girlfriend already. I was lovestruck and I couldn't break it. It ruined my relationship with my girlfriend, my love for music, wow, and this other chick.

I broke it off with the chick from California, tried to fight for my relationship, only to find out she had met a guy on WoW. Karma's a bitch. But I wasn't ready to give up that easily. It took a few years, But I got her back, and made her my wife. We created a family. The girl from California, befriended my wife, and I've stayed friends with her as well.

What does any of this have to do with music? Well..everything. Music has always been there. I remember creating a flash video of photos of me and my girlfriend with background music from Yellowcard playing the song 'Only One' and sending it to her. It hit hard, and had a huge emotional impact for me. Till this day, listening to that song, brings tears, and memories of my fight for our relationship.

Today things are calm, chaotic, stable and unstable all at the same time, and I fucking love it. Why? Because music is the catalyst. It's fucked me over, It's saved me, It's sent me into depression and it dragged me back out.

After all that, I still listen to my old music, rarely find any new bands, because I'm happy with what I have now, that's not to say, I don't go looking. But I've found older music has that raw emotion, that I still crave. As I lay Dying still raises the hairs on my neck, Breakdown of Sanity still has me screaming thier lyrics in my car, and NOFX still brings out my teenage angst and my middle finger.

So to those of you who can relate, thanks for taking a trip down memory lane with me.

Added or rather re-added the Ai Art, these are all new gens, all the previous junk is gone. I went ahead and added a blur to every image, hovering over them will remove the blur. They are NOT NSFW, but I added the blur anyway just incase. I have a lot more gens to add, but that'll be another day.

Revemaped the layout, got rid of the pesky iframe.

Had a quick Doodle session today, I will say, pictures of these don't do it any justice, they look so much better in my sketchbook.

Finally! New Zen Doodle finished, my hand, wrist and neck hurt.

Got my new board today, I'm going cruising tomorrow. \m/

Still haven't finished my full page Doodles, taking a lot longer than I thought it would. But inbetween my Doodle breaks, I made some more buttons, cause I felt like GIF'ing it up.

Working on two, yes TWO, full page Zen Doodles, hope to have one finished by the end of the weekend. I might..might start working on a collection. After posting some of the old NFOs, it got my thinking that I may have some other old internet crap stored away on some old drive.

Renamed the Zen menu item to Zen Doodles, added first Zen Doodle, more to come.

Well damn, has it only been 4 months? 5..? Well however long it's been I'm here again, new mindset, new design. Let's see where this road takes us ;)